i've spent a lot of time on delawaredestroyers.com lately, trying to make it just slightly less gay. i have to say, it is less gay now than it was before, but parts of it are still pretty whack. but all the work is paying off...the site is ranked #6 on google now for "george thorogood" searches and the hits, really, are coming in hard and fast compared to what was happening. i have to say, this google thing is the high-water mark for me as a designer and overall "web guy." it ain't much, i guess, but it does feel nice to be rewarded for the work.
money trumps everything else. no matter what is good in your life or how happy you might be otherwise, if the money isn't there then things aren't going to right. and i am so tired of things not being right. as impossible as it seems to me, things have gotten worse for us lately. and i am really scared about where things are going. i've always had to juggle the budget to make things work, but soon there will be no juggling to be done.
here's where we are. right this instant, things are tight, tight, tight. but soon we both will need some new clothes. my feet are always sore from the callouses that have built up on my feet from the crappy-ass shoes i wear everyday, and the pants i've worn for a year now are getting threadbare. i have a sick cat, and none of my cats have had their shots this year. kris has a trip to chicago for school in may that lasts five days, so that is five days she won't be working. in the fall she has to quit her job so she can intern (mandatory) for school. if we can barely make it with her working, what the fuck are we going to do if she doesn't work?
i can't seem to find a solution. all this stuff has caused my brain to lock up. i can't quit thinking about the money stuff, but it never gets farther than "what are we gonna do? crap! i mean, what are we gonna do!?!"
