no, not alone. that was just silly. it just sometimes feels like it.
that whole post was a mood, i think.
but i did have a valid point.
no one goes around looking for those magical relationships in life, they just happpen. you're always surprised when they do. but aren't they amazing! that feeling of being completely at ease with someone, trusting, being able to let your guard down, being able to be yourself and not worry. i value those relationships so much! they give me strength and comfort from the world. how can anyone just piss that away? or maybe i misjudge people. maybe the connection is really just one-sided, all in my head, not real.
it's not that I need those relationships. i obviously don't. but they sure are nice. i mean, they sure are nice before they go down the shitter, at which point you wish they never happened.
geez, i'm just blathering on. sorry folks. i'll give it a rest.
