am i invisible?
can you not see me?
this is intensely fucking crazy. i can't stand it.
this is like getting picked last to play dodgeball in middle school, except instead of getting picked last - not getting picked at all and the game goes on all around me, and it's not middle school it's my entire life.
but then, suddenly, someone calls my name. maybe they want me to play! so i go running over, smiling, and they do ask me to play! But then they give me the ball and go running away to play in the real game as i realize the ball is flat and coated with urine.
