adjective of the month: overwhelmed.
i find myself beset with certain responsibilities and deadlines that:
- call for an extreme dedication i'm unsure that i have
- are not for my benefit, but instead are for the direct benefit of others. in fact, i get no payoff here at all. i receive only a negative effect.
- cause me to continually wonder "what the fuck am I doing?"
I hate being jammed up in a situation I have no control over.
it's going to be a long, cruel summer.
