September 2005 Archives

Posted new Jaime pics last night, and new feline pics tonight...

Integrity.

Sometimes with the choices I make I fuck myself. But it's okay - those are still the right choices.

I will stand by those choices to show you, if you are looking, what it is to be human.

Ayo ladadayo
Ayo ladadayo ladeeda
Sometimes I give in to sadness
Sometimes I don't
Doo doo doo doo
At times I'm part of the madness
Sometimes I won't
Give in to you
You see in a way
I have been drifting down a river
To nowhere

Since day one...and now one day has come.

11:11.
No idea.

We are in possession of the paperwork.

Where am I?
How do I know it?
What should I do?

the thing about becoming. You can't stop what you can't end. Whims, wishes. All you want. Nothing changes. It exists outside of you. The endless list goes on.

I try to sprinkle things from time to time, here and there, within these words, just so you will know. So you will know that I never forget. A shibbitz is a terrible thing to waste.

I have had the terrible crud for two and a half days now, and I am feeling just as (or more so) crudlike tonight. Yet, the crud cannot get me down. I am un-get-downable. I say "Bah!" to all things that would. "Move along!"

Could you predict any of this?

Hot, tired, itching, frustrated.

Stacked agenda. Ways. Always a list, always a challenge. Somehow.

The things we do!