tobacco and norvasc, that is all. i'm just fucked up like this naturally. exploration through conversation. discovery of self via interaction. surprise! it can be good. it can be good. it can be good. remind u. remind me. dosing on non-drugs. remember. i do. i will.
i have, and can. forgotten sometimes. sometimes i let myself down in evil and tragic ways. a memento - write it on your skin if you must. tattoo yourself. tattoo me. remember. backtrack thru time and see the fuck-ups. and when you have someone to talk to, when you can speak you'd better fucking speak.
it's not possible to live in the moment. and if u can, ur not right. u are an animal.
the point is: to build. to progress. to avoid slippage. it takes 100% effort. u can never let go or you will free fall. i have not been giving 100%. i have failed to maintain grasp on all that i am, and now that i've awakened the distance i've fallen is far. far. but i am still able to climb. not only that - i'm fucking super Abe with the three brands on my chest from the ancients, and I'm ready to chant to take out all the motherfuckers in my way.
