NO.

i will bury things so deeply that fisticuffs could not find them.  i will hacksaw to the bottom of the bottomless pit, i will fashion a chair from the stones in my heart and sit there in darkness and silence until the universe disintegrates.  i will char my own skin from the heat i generate from holding back this tsunami of desire.  one million colleges will receive emergency government funding to solve the puzzle of frustration in my brain.  when they finally come for me i will lay my naked self down on the riverbed trembling and it will all become calm.  as time ceases and the cracks within your construct rip apart anew my truth will scream at ten times high c.

but right now, right now, now now now...i just cry.