non-starter

I would use a phrase such as "you most likely don't give two shits. or even one." but then, that would be a non-starter to this non-starter. My life is so bizarre right now I have been failing to find the words. And at exactly the same time, I know if I were to find the words I would know immediately that conveying them here to you would surely be something i could never do. a non-starter.