The Egosystem http://www.egocentricity.net/ en Copyright 2009 Sat, 14 Nov 2009 00:09:57 -0500 http://www.sixapart.com/movabletype/ http://www.rssboard.org/rss-specification do you hear me? is anyone listening to this silence? I am dug in deep.  I am doing the only thing I can do, that I could do.

I am now and forever protecting.  It is all I have to give.  It's okay, no one cares.

Silence will return here now, for another few weeks. 
]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/11/do-you-hear-me-is-anyone-liste.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/11/do-you-hear-me-is-anyone-liste.html Sat, 14 Nov 2009 00:09:57 -0500 somewhat foolishly,
As life continues to quickly pass me by, I have belatedly realized that ye olde cliches "it's now or never", "no time like the present" and the like are appropriate to my long delayed decision to finally place my story out there.

For the last 15 years I have known I had a story to tell.  I am now 35 years old, and have yet to simply do what needs to be done.  Reason: fear.  Time to step past the fear and move forward.

I have nothing to offer save my words.  Most likely, these words will not speak to you.  But maybe and perhaps they will. 

What you will see will be put forth as is, no editing, in real time.  What I write when I write will be what I have written, much like this blog.  It will take shape over time.  It can only be what it is, and although much of it has resided within a secluded and restricted area within my brain for a very long time, I am quite sure I will be as surprised as you to find out its full nature.

Follow along, if you wish.  Ultimately, this is a journey I must take, and it is the journey that matters most.

The story will be housed here






]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/08/somewhat-foolishly.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/08/somewhat-foolishly.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 02:23:24 -0500 all the pretty colors
Falling asleep, but waking up 20 times an hour during your sleep.

That after 2 or 3 hours, you are awakened by suffocation enough that your brain wakes up fully and that you are up for an hour before falling asleep again.

That when you do fall back asleep finally, you continue to wake up 20 times an hour.

That all told in any one night you may get 4 or 5 hours of really shitty sleep.

Now Imagine:

Not doing that one night, but doing that every single night for 8 years.

Would you be tired?
How would it effect you?
Can you even imagine?
]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/all-the-pretty-colors.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/all-the-pretty-colors.html Mon, 27 Jul 2009 03:05:42 -0500 Penis-free porn! entrepreneurial spirit to good use by founding my own porn company, the title of this post would be my advertising tagline.

Additionally, or perhaps in conjunction with this tagline, I would also display bright yellow stars on my porn categories announcing that this porn would be free from dildos, lesbians, animals, utensils, motorized contraptions, or any other such nonsense.

The last thing I want to see while attending to self-on-self love is the sight of another dude's wang. 

]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/penisfree-porn.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/penisfree-porn.html Sun, 26 Jul 2009 00:28:27 -0500 the bizness http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/the-bizness.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/the-bizness.html Sat, 25 Jul 2009 13:47:01 -0500 Banana Republic http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/banana-republic.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/07/banana-republic.html Sat, 25 Jul 2009 02:25:51 -0500 time-lapse blogging I can't even begin to explain the interim, so I'll only say that as always I am doing my best.

 

Halfway through this year, and the amount of occurrences has been such that it simply seems like one very long day.

 

My current priorities are to continue to do well in school, to complete my work on the house, sell the house, buy a new house, move into that house, improve some issues surrounding my career, and ramp up the current weight loss.  After three years, it seems I have finally found a way to reverse the tide.

 

My time is always short.

]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/06/timelapse-blogging.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/06/timelapse-blogging.html Sun, 21 Jun 2009 00:16:54 -0500 Heebie Fucking Jeebies I am not down with that.

I have skipped my own looooooooo

]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/05/heebie-fucking-jeebies.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/05/heebie-fucking-jeebies.html Mon, 11 May 2009 22:23:27 -0500 you and you and you and you and you http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/04/you-and-you-and-you-and-you-an.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/04/you-and-you-and-you-and-you-an.html Tue, 07 Apr 2009 03:19:46 -0500 sacred cows

]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/04/sacred-cows.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/04/sacred-cows.html Mon, 06 Apr 2009 23:37:46 -0500 admit one http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/04/admit-one.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/04/admit-one.html Fri, 03 Apr 2009 21:19:05 -0500 hobnobbing with my hobgoblins http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/hobnobbing-with-my-hobgoblins.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/hobnobbing-with-my-hobgoblins.html Mon, 23 Mar 2009 23:29:54 -0500 poo is the king of my days
Five cats = litter boxes full of poo

Two dogs = take me out to poo every ten minutes

One fish = change my filter, poo is floating everywhere in here

One 18 month old = daddy, change my poo diaper

Which mentions nothing of my own daily poo concerns. ]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/poo-is-the-king-of-my-days.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/poo-is-the-king-of-my-days.html Wed, 18 Mar 2009 22:47:58 -0500 my life is over-run with poo
Five cats = litter boxes full of poo

Two dogs = take me out to poo every ten minutes

One fish = change my filter, poo is floating everywhere in here

One 18 month old = daddy, change my poo diaper

Which mentions nothing of my own daily poo concerns.


]]> http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/my-life-is-overrun-with-poo.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/my-life-is-overrun-with-poo.html Wed, 18 Mar 2009 22:40:53 -0500 no fear, just loathing this isn't las vegas, and i'm not hunter thompson...but there are days when all i want is transmogrification. http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/no-fear-just-loathing.html http://www.egocentricity.net/2009/03/no-fear-just-loathing.html Sun, 15 Mar 2009 09:22:36 -0500